Though you don't love me
	you never said "Go Away"
and I - too naive to see
	now must forever pay

How could you thrive on my weakness
	take an innocent child to seduce
All the while three steps ahead
	before any doubt could produce

I went from loving to not giving a shit
	in the few months I was with you
I'm really such a fool
	at the time thinking you felt it too

My parents told me about good and bad
	I guess I dind't understand
Because, Dear Tygerr, you helped me
	travel far from the promised land

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Your image pours into my mind,
like blood from a cut.
The only word whispered
from my lips is yours.
You haunt me.
ghost-like you creep 
into my dreams.
My conscious & unconscious
are filled with you.
I am dizzy, 
it's a dizziness of a drug.
But I am sober
It is useless to resist -
But I can't help fighting.
You are gone.
Vanished.
I cannot find thee.
Yet I want to 
please the hunger
that overcomes me.
Not the hunger of lust
but of companionship
You confuse me.
I am overcome by you.
I want to be near you.
Yet, I fear you.
I cannot read you.
It excites me.
I can be natural with you.
But why?
Now I crave just a look.
Like poison does a kill,
I'm the moth -
you're the flame -
Dance with me.
Embrace me -
Capture me with those cat-like eyes,
Drink my soul,
I'd let the devildance on my doorstep,
to see you.
But Why?
I feel like a 
Vampire's prey,
Strangely marked -
Drawn to you by Instinct -
I can still feel your touch,
yet it's been gone for weeks.
I feel awake 
but my vision is clouded.
Will you come back for me?
Or will you leave me tortured 
with this mystery?

KELLEE EVENS
11-22-96
3:33 am

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 . . . . . Bloodless lips whisper your name through a mouthful of pills while  
 hollow veins pulse with stolen fire.The godhead stirs and digs around the 
 corners of its grave. The smell of wet earth and semen permeates the air with  
 all the cloying force of my love. My nails gleam silver in the moonlight, their 
 razor tips whisper in the voices of long dead lovers. Spittle flies from her lips 
 as I take another bite. It stings as it touches my tainted skin. whose god is so 
 foolish as to claim domination over me? My breath thins the air to acid and 
 makes virgins like to whores. I can taste their fear on the air like a fine sheet 
 of blood and hate clouds my vision to a scarlet fog. Jesus wept when he first 
 saw me, and forevermore he has shrieked in his agony. I am the ultimate 
 mind fuck. Slices that fail to sting spill on their upturned faces. my thoghts 
 light fires. Talons draw blood in an uninterupted litany of lustful vengeance. 
 I have tasted of societies corrupted flesh and found it wanting. This is 
 enlightenment. The mark of the beast runs purple in the prey and the 
 merchants prosper as always. I can see the pulsing heart of humanity and I 
 know in the dreg of my shattered soul that I shall be the one to set it free. 
 Smoke and shadow define my exsistance and the screams of the diseased 
 define my joy. Fire leaps from my hand with hungry tongues and the world 
 slinks away in fear. I am the baptizer. Do you really think you'll reach heaven?

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 . . . . .  My bloodshot eyes simmer with lust but my back is rigid with fear. 
I have stood upon the crumbling edge of sanity and hurled myself into the 
depths.  Echos of what I was are burned away in the purifying heat of what I 
am.  The stigmata still sting in the scathing light of the sun, but here in the 
loving glow of the mother,  they ripple with ecstasy.  I have tasted of evil and  
found it wanting.  I can see you,  you know.  Every twisted breath you take, 
every drop that hides beneath your paper skin.  My veins boil for that crimson 
sweetness.  The taste of  your sinners flesh tickles my memory with razor 
tipped hands.  Leaves swirl outside on a wind full of empty promises while my 
hooves strike flames from your unflinching earth.  Alone and forsaken.  So now 
I wait.  I am the hunter of the unholy;  it's what I invented myself for.  Invisible 
wires pull you skin it a thousand different directions and my taloned hands 
hold every one.  Marked since birth with my desire, waiting long for you.  My 
glory sears you eyes even as your frail body tears beneath my assault.  My 
teeth shred layer after layer of you soft yielding flesh.  Your sin floods my 
senses as the locusts swim outside in their golden armor.  If I had left you a 
throat you could  tell all the world of my glory.  You could taste of my body 
and lose yourself in the perfect ebony blackness of the void.  I watch the light 
 slip from your eyes and breath the scarlet for that seeps from your skin. 
You will live inside me forever now,child. At long last... 
                                                                    ...you are mine.